I'm supposed to leave for Tahoe for a weekend getaway in less than an hour. I spent most of last night in crippling pain, pain that was so severe at times I was crying, or where it took me past the place I could deal and put me into what I can only describe as catatonic shock.
Pain sucks. Pain sucks HARD. My friends and family really wish I would take something for it. Unfortunately, having UC means that pain meds just make it that much worse since as many of you might know, they plug you up. With UC, you don't want anything that screws with what is already screwed up. I've also found frankly they just don't work well. They make me not care about anything, but I can still feel every little pain. I thought about it last night though, as I lay there trying to just get a grip. At the time I would have given almost anything for it just to stop. I had a momentary delusion of even just getting some freakin' Tylenol or the Flexiril I have from a recent car accident. I couldn't get out of bed though. And my sensitive doggies all laid on top of me trying to heal me...sweet, but didn't feel great.
This morning I feel better in the teeniest fashion. I'm upright, woo hoo! I'm about to make a 5 hour drive, but then I can relax with dear friends in a place that I love. Hopefully, the pain will take a vacation too.
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